Blue Moon

I don't know if others feel this way, but some days it is really difficult to live in this world, this reality that we have created. I am a big picture kind of person, who looks at all sides of issues to understand them and unfortunately, not everyone does the same. And it is frustrating because I just want people to understand.

But isn't that the reason I became a writer?

This past week has really made me appreciate my education, for many reasons. As someone studying writing, I often am confronted with, "you don't need a degree to be a writer." While yes, this is true, anyone can start typing away and write a book--maybe even a highly acclaimed or bestselling one--I feel that studying your passion is never a waste of time.

I struggled with whether or not I should study writing, or something else and just write on the side as a hobby. I decided to follow my dream of writing, and after a year at SF State, I'm glad I did.
I am more comfortable in my writing and am improving everyday. The literature classes I've been taking for my minor are exposing me to new writers and genres. My understanding of the world and how literature shapes and reflects it grows with every story/novel/poem I read.

So even though I have days when I don't want to exist in this world, days where people's uneducated opinions are harmful to others, days when I feel like a lone voice of reason in a sea of voices louder than mine, even still, I don't ever want to stop learning. Because even though I feel too small to change the world, if I keep writing, I can at least shift it a little.

Tomorrow night is a blue moon, the last until 2018. I think there has been a change in me and while I don't necessarily believe in astrology, it would be foolish to discount the power of the moon. After all, it controls the ocean.